HaleyKate

Previously this blog was used as a place of reflection and update while I was in Sierra Leone in 2006. However, I'm starting to use it again now for a new travel experience. I will be in Israel June 2nd-July 3rd working on an archaeological dig and touring around the country. This blog's purpose is to keep people updated and reflect on time spent in the Holy Land.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Building porches

WOW! This past week was amazing. I went to Atlanta, GA with a group from AU to work with Church on the Street. God revealed so much of himself to me. I left part of my heart in Atlanta. I am still on such a high from that week and it is such a blessing. It would be impossible for me to share all that is on my heart right now so I'll just share a part of what God has been teaching me this past week and continues to do so here at AU.
Kurt Salierno is the founder of Church on the Street. His is an amazing story. He is the only person I have ever had the priveledge of knowing that has a genuine disregard for self; he truly lives to serve. When I first met him I was so astounded at the stories he would tell that I at times figured he had expanded the truth a little. However, I was amazed to learn that they were true and as I heard more and more through out the week I was left dumbfounded. I cannot put to words all that I have seen, heard and experienced.
One thing Pastor Kurt said really struck me. He told us about how in his neighborhood, he is the only one with a front porch. He intentionally built a front porch in stead of a back deck. His purpose in doing this was to create a way to invite people into his life. After the porch was built, he put a few rocking chairs on it and would sit out there during the day. For a while people would just walk by his house, the only house in the entire neighborhood with a front porch, and wave. Until one afternoon when a man walked up and started talking to Kurt and asked why he'd built the porch. "It's for you," Kurt said. He explained to the man that he wanted his life to be open to everyone and he his life to be easily accessable to people. It didn't take long, and now the rocking chairs are well worn and there are few days when the porch is empty. There have even been times when Kurt or Lori, his wife, have come home and people are literally waiting ont he porch for them.

What a testament that is! It is so common in our society to only let people in when it is convenient for us. However, as Christians, we are called to live an open life. Jesus did not send people away just becuase he was tired or wanted some time to himself. He always invited people to fellowship with him.
The beauty in it is that when open our lives to people, they open theirs to us. It is sometimes a hard truth to realize that we need people in our lives. That means living in such a way that people can easily walk in to our lives. We MUST build porches.

Sharing in the fellowship of Christ,
HaleyKate

Friday, March 10, 2006

I am here

God totally blessed me with this song recently and so after finally finishing it tonight...I thought I'd share it...


There are days when I feel like nothing is as it was
The flowers have wilted, the light has dimmed
I am disappointed again for I placed my trust in mere humans
The joy I knew yesterday seems a distant dream today

I am here
Take me as I am
I am here
Take me as I am

I long to be in Your presence
But I am a slave to fear
I cannot lift my head alone
Father, draw near
I am here

Sometimes I take to heart who this worlds says I am
I’m left broken, feeling inadequate
I know You have not changed so why does this feel so different?
I need You to hold me close, bring new life to me

I am here
Take me as I am
I am here
Take me as I am

I long to be in Your presence
But I am a slave to fear
I cannot lift my head alone
Father, draw near

Lord I hear You whispering
My head simply can’t believe
Your Truth
Though I don’t understand Your love
I know what You would say to me,
You’d scream…

I am here
Let me take you as you are
I am here
Let me take you as you are

I am right here with you
Do not be a slave to fear
I will lift your head up high
Child, draw near

I am here
Let me take you as you are
I am here
I want you as you are

Thursday, March 09, 2006

my life is a paradox

Today I forgot why I profess to be a Christian. There are days, like this one, when it just doesn't make any sense to me at all. I am tempted to live one way or another because of the happiness I may get from it, I mean it is happiness, why do I have to avoid it? Then I snap back to reality, realizing it would only bring temporary happiness, and get so sad that I even wanted it at all. It is human nature and yet God wants me to fight it and be above it? So many aspects of Christianity are so illogical it's maddening! After all of this feeling came up today I remembered something I had just written in a midterm paper:

"The gospel is the greatest paradox ever. Jesus had done nothing wrong! Yet he chose to die a murderer's death. Due to the fact that as Christians we must strive to live life as Christ, our lives must become paradoxical to this world. Our lives must make 'a statement that is seemingly contradictory or opposed to common sense and yet is true'. That is the definition of paradox, according to the Meridian-Webster dictionary and thus, if what I have said is true, that is the definition of a Christ-centered life."

I so often forsake my decision to give everything to God. I let Satan talk in me into thinking in the immature ways that I used to think. I forget that with the joy of being God's there are going to be times when what is easy isn't right, that my life is going to seem, at times, paradoxical by this world's standards. In order to overcome the doubt that creeps in during times such as those, I must persistently pursue Him even through them because the reward if I do, is far greater then the temporary ease if I give into the temptation to "do it my way". I mean let me be honest, when I try to "do it my way", I only end up causing more pain for myself.

All of this is so elementary Christianity to me and I feel like I should never struggle with it because it is so simple. Yet, after saying all of this I feel so at peace. Because as I look back at what I just wrote, almost everysentencee begins with "I". HELLO! Did I not learn anything...I have to give EVERYTHING to God. There needs to be less "I". If God were going to speak audibly to me right now, He'd probably tell me to let go. He'd tell me to stop trying to hold on to this world and surrender all to him.

So that's what I'm gonna do tonight. I'm letting go...and embracingg the beautiful paradox that is my life in Christ!