Hello my blog family. I feel that I have neglected you the last week or so. I appologize that I have been distant. I have been having a hard time processing all that I am experiencing and learning. That is no new thing for me but it's been harder than normal recently.

Don't get me wrong, it is a really good thing. When i am having a hard time processing, that means that God is teaching me something bigger than myself. For that I so greatful! I count it a priveledge that God is choosing to show so much to me. Just today I was reading an e-mail from someone who is lookin at going on a Servant Team trip with WMF as I am currently doing, and I started asking myself, "Am I doing enough?" Am I putting 100% of myself, and then some? Or am I simply surviving? Doing the minimum? I have come to understand here that doing God's work is not always easy and comfortable but through putting ourselfs out of our norm, God is able to use our displacement, vulnerability to connect with people and bring them into community with our Father. I pray that I would strive to give 100% of myself and then some to the glory of God. I am not sure I have yet done that...but I want to. So please pray with me in that.

As I think about going back to the states, I am lost as to what that is going to mean for me. Wait, stop. I not going to get into that now, because I am not supposed to worry about tomorrow. No, I am going to choose to live today instead. I know that looking too far ahead and looking back too often can get me in a lot of trouble because I miss today. So, I will worry about being in the States when the time comes. For now, I am going to live for God in the best way I know how today. It is so simple but it something I have to choose daily. I know I have written about that before but admittedly it is still something I am failing to do.

This afternoon, I was sitting with some of the lighthouse boys and their friends just enjoying the coolness of the morning. I was jokingly told them that I knew Krio perfectly but I choose to act like I don't becuase I didn't want to make them feel bad. So they had a great time making me translate things for them into english b/c they said they didn't know how to say. Admittedly, there was many a time that I had no freaking idea what they were saying! So, I'd just make up the most outrageous thing I could come up with. Just hearing them laugh and seeing their beautiful faces makes my heart melt. I wish I did know Krio better so that I could understand their hearts better. It is easy for me to look at all the dark faces and miss the differing features. What I mean is that sometimes it's easier to group them all together, instead of looking at the beautiful things that make them different. I love them all so much and I hope that I am able to get to know them better. That is going to take my effort and God's guidance. But I look forward to it.

Well, feel like I"m sort of babbling so I'm out. Have a blessed weekend and we'll talk next week!
Love you all,
Haley Kate




Prayer requests:
I would ask that you pray with me for discernment. That I may always hear the Spirit and respond to Him in a way that would bring Glory to our Father.
I would have no hesitation in the Spirit's leadings. (I hope that makes sense)